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Monday, September 29, 2008 4:31 AM


2:59am.



what the heeeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllllll


Friday, September 26, 2008 9:02 PM


in this ever changing place, youre the one thing that remains


mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im liking where im at now.. and even more so when its just going to get better :)


beeen hard at work, but playing so much harder than ever; and it just feels so much better after a hard day's work. im likinggg. puasa left about less than a week, time to relive the past and forgive and forget.


sounds easy...
thank god for distractions!



i could stay like this forever ;)


Monday, September 22, 2008 10:52 PM


i feel pretty decent, not that my actions have been completely pure but just decent.


for the last few hours ive been trying to remember when was the last time i felt genuiely happy. a day where nothing when wrong, when i could no wrong, when there was actually something to look forward too. and it hit me, i havent had that day yet. i havent had a feeling like that before. to hear it from someone else's point of view sounds amazing, but im just not sure im ready for that yet though. sounds excruiatingly nice but it seems a little too out of reach, for anyone really.


if someone can tell me they had their day, come on over to me. ill shoot you bastard for lying haha. even lying cant be genuien anymore. gundus..


im taking a chance now and let the chips fall where they may, and i can actually go on grinning. (genuinely :P). dawn to dusk has been excruciating painful though, what with trying to keep your patience at a minimal level while inside your screaming profanities that would put your parents to shame.


you got me burning red


Thursday, September 18, 2008 9:39 PM


:)


finally..



wondeRone all over again.;)


Wednesday, September 10, 2008 9:08 PM


today is my day =) and damn its great feeling that everything is going my way..



and i got a tingle..
especially after finding out your missed by that person, one that you just never really realized to begin with.


at the end of an exhausting day, puts a smile on your face by just a simple, sweet, lone text.

im really not one for the mushygushy rubbish but, amazingly the feeling is ..nice and to actually feel.. alive and wanted. priceless.


hate to admit it but i cant believe ive been missing out on stuff like this. its amazing what a text can do to you. now imagine having the 'text' next to you xtenfold.to put it simply, amazing. presently, ive got no worries at all. the weight of the world just seems so much lighter right now. and that my friends is really an achievement for me.

got me grinning like a fool now..


now imagine this feeling lying next to you and now the weight of everything simply disappears..



maybe afterall i can be that, wondeRone.. all over again. the image of that is simply extascy.



..and now to immerse myself without a second thought ;)


Tuesday, September 09, 2008 10:58 PM


finally changed it.

still alot more to do but pretty satisfied on how, clean everything is :).


internet is maddeningly slow, staring to get on my nerves. takes me about 3 mins to load a page. thank god patience is a virtue, or else.. starting to get the hang of my tablet (stylus-wise) its pretty cool and my handwriting looks more awesome than ever!



the month is breezing extremely quick even for me. guess raya will come quicker than i initially anticipated.


and now back to pretending everything's ok


Friday, September 05, 2008 10:07 PM


the city looks so nice from here
its a pity i cant see it clearly

i just realised, its never going to be ok. it just never will.


today was a good day. it didnt take much to make it alright. just the company. ;)

while youre standing there it disappears..
it just disappears


Monday, September 01, 2008 8:36 PM


everyones starting to get on my nerves.

excuses, stupid reasons that doesnt even make sense. god, im losing faith in humanity every friggin day it seems.

i cant seem to register this in my head. what the freaking FCUK you know.


gundu.



reddd

RRRawr


wondeRone



quod me nutrit; me destruit.