,
Saturday, July 23, 2005 11:36 PM
Happy Birthday Boo.


// Matt Pond Pa - Champange Supernova
This whole blog will be dedicated to None other then IzatB. Plus the songs (that has some memories together :p).Its his birthday, thats why im blogging about him :). First of all let me wish you a very happy 17.I love you for everything you've done there for me.


Remember the days when we were still getting to know each other and you texted me so much.
Remember when i told you about CoffeBean Caramel and up to now you still love it :p.
Remember the days when we spent so much time together and still couldnt get sick of one another.
Remember when you picked me up from Mata-Mata and we just slum at Coffezone for so long duringRaya and we sat there talking about what was going on with each others life (while i was in baju kurung and youwere in casual lol).
Remember when i was in deep shit, you comforted me until i was alright.
Remember you stayed up webcamming with me, and we ate supper right infront of the computer.
Remember when we planned everything but it bombed, and then you were drunk you called me to tell me you love me and miss me on NYE :).
Remember when i was always depressed, hurt, felt like shit you're always there and vice versa.
Remember when you said you were always going to be there for me and you really meant that.
Remember when all we did was walk around and talk about life, did you know i never felt happier in my whole life to have someone like you in my life.
Remember when i was supposed to go to your prom, i couldnt but i went the next morning, and we walked along the beach and then at night we spent the night in Gadong together, you had a hangoverbut it was still fun :).

All these memories are at the top of my head, theres millions more but its just too much to type down.

// Yellowcard - Empty Apartment.

IzatB is one of the most inspirational person ive known. He has different views in life. He respects and accepts me for the way i am. Wherethe i start drinking, smokeup, go bald,pierce my lips, whatsoever. He'll accept me for who i am and he wont be judgemental.
He can be sweet, he can be an ass. Hes a hard person to hate. Whenever you're with himyou'll never regret any of it. You'll never regret how much he'll impact you're life like what he has done with me. we drifted apart for sometime in our life but now we're closer then ever and no one can ever come between us or break us apart.

My 17 year old booboo lol. I hope you had a wonderful birthday even i couldnt be there foryou this year. You know how i wanted to but dont worry i will make it up. :). Many happy returns babe. Every moment shared, spent i never regretted any. I love you. Have a good one babe and many more to come. <3



Tuesday, July 19, 2005 8:54 PM
When..


I guess you never know someone until that very moment.

No matter how tough, strong, can-never-be-broken-down you actually never know until you're there to witness as everything else unfolds. I stared at someone who i though could never be broken. And there she was, weeping silently. Her significant other didnt even know she was weeping so silently, so broken, so tormented, ready to just fall apart. I couldnt bear that, even though it wasnt my place to comment. I just wish i could take away the pain. Even though we had our ups and down. Whatever she felt, that very moment, i wished i could just whisked it all away. Just so she can be someone i always looked up, like i always did not that it'll change but it just made me realise what love can actually do.

It corrupts your mind, blurs your vision, make you vulnerable and just screws up your life. At that very moment, i hope ill never feel that way. I hope i dont appear weak. I hope ill never have to look down on my significant other. I hope ill find someone worth everything. I hope ill never have to be in the situation like i know what shes going through. i hope i can be that strong. i just have to hope.

Which also made me realise a lady's love for her guy. How much she just wished he return the same..


Saturday, July 16, 2005 11:47 PM
Hope.


[ramblings] After a gruelling ordeal, i can calmly say im in better shape then i was a few days ago. I know my mistakes, but somehow im not quite regretting any because after the 'talk' i exceptionally learn alot. Maybe im not a mistake, but still its going to take awhile to get through. I will definitely be taking baby steps over this matter. [/ramblings]

Had a chat with an old friend from primary school, whos on my link right now Felicia. Gah, chatting to her made me miss the old times in singapore when i was in primary. I remember the basketballs, the pe, the canteen food, the hopscotch, the friends not forgetting and many more. I remember going over to the secondary basketball court and playing there with my small friends. Alot of good memories there. A few i found in friendster which is sometimes the only reason why i like friendster lol. Then again no regrets im in Brunei.

School will be over very soon. Especially when i sit down alone and think about it. I never thought itd be ending so soon. Then right after when school ends, Raya comes. I have actually planned already what to bake for Raya this year lol. Pretty random but then again jobless :p. After Raya comes Christmas/Eve, New Year/Eve. January birthdays birthdays then i turn 17. I feel so old. :. One more until key year. How freaky is that. The next thing i know ill be married with 3-4 kids, complaining about what the hell the children are up to lol. Life seems to be passing by so freaking fast with a blink of an eye. At least i got someone to share this with. IzatB HEHE =)

Some guys are getting weirder and weirder. They are freaking me out and i thought they were actually different. They can contradict and UNcontradict themselves repeately. When they say they're different its bullshit, or so ive been told. Dont take it the wrong way though. =).

Anyways im out. Laters much.


P.S: Hiro - Im alright now thanks for being there. :)


Friday, July 08, 2005 9:36 PM
Overdue


Tag Replies:
tash: mmhmm just doing it to kill boredom at times lol. love ya <3
dayah: i love you pantat besarrr hehe. come here soon. :) your always part of me..
jiws: right back at youu.
izatb: i did jua!
effene: i do wanna grab yours. lol.

Yeahhh.. overdue post hehe. But first, here are some pics of my past week saturdays :).



The Boo who was extremely exhausted and YET came to gdg for me HEHE. Hungover huh :p

Abg Ranz =)


Si Jubs lol.


Argh, now for the updates. Havent been well for the past few days, well almost a week. Hence, havent been to class, which i do kind of miss. All i have been doing is just bumming around the house. Got someone to come over and catch me up on lessons. So catching up wont be such a biggie while bumming around home can be such a bore when on the tv has just been CNN or just reruns of OC.

What do you do witho yourself, when someone says your a horrible person yet only ONE person puts you down but the other doesnt? But it still affects you bad. But then again you wont know a person until you actually lived with them? What if everything you just slip away and your just trap in a box (ok metal box :p) and you cant get out. No one hears you scream, no one hears you calling, no one knows, no one feels the anger, pain or regret you have inside. Your alone. What the hell are you suppose to do?

I miss you all back at home. <3 src="http://ourworld.cs.com/xicyjx/dainrafz.jpg">
Miss you strong strong lol. Mwah



reddd

RRRawr


wondeRone



quod me nutrit; me destruit.