Thursday, February 21, 2008 9:32 PM

♥erdi;
my halo's not shining too brightly.. i think i need to change to duracell.
R;
kurang asam





haha, oh the things you say. internet speed is just torturing me right now. believe it or not its taking me more than half an hour for one song. thank god i learnT patience :p.


what did i do for my in lieu? you would think itd be something productive or even interesting. try watching atonement and hogging the couch the whole day. practically slept the whole day, also due to the fact im feeling under the weather. sighs. practically wasted the whole day.




this dated back in 2006. the things i do out of boredom.

i realized i havent touched any of my old stationery and journals for quite awhile. i think i might start doodling like i used to again, with the help of course of my old trusty pencil, now all i need is a little inspiration. any takers? huhu.

today i rise above again. i let the pain go and just walk away to better things. its better than just holding it in like i used to. i called a truce, it wasnt easy. it took me a awhile for the realization to set in but i did it. im actually happy that i can let things go. (EH BUT NOT ALL AH) i think i finally am growing a little. i still cant believe it though, huhu i guess maturity is really kicking in.

i think somebody better shoot me now before i do anything more decent again.

Monday, February 18, 2008 8:27 PM

♥devics - if we cannot see
the waking hours - revenge

can't seem to get those 2 anywhere. friggin fudge. just have to keep looking i guess. ive been donwloading like a mad woman since my connection tonight is pretty decent than the last few weeks. stray's dont sleep, susie suh, stephen fretwell, tom freund. ohhh soothing to my ears.

every song has to end but its that any reason not to enjoy the music?

these days it gets to point where i just dont want to get up from bed, the weather has been excruciatingly dull and yet im up by 6 dragging myself out of bed. oh how i miss those days where i would just sleep without a care in the world except for my running highs.

ive come to dislike mondays more than i did in school. oh god. the weekend always always pass by too fast for my liking. starting to get on my nerves. slaves to the money, but what can you do.
bed's a calling.







oh and ive come to realise, im not entirely emotionally challenged :p.

Sunday, February 17, 2008 6:35 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008 9:07 PM

♥good lord, my english and pronounciation has definitely been tampered with. mygod. although, i cant say that my malay has improved, only bahasa brunei yang banyak ku paham ah. still rusty but getting there :P

connection these days have been pretty shitty. sighs, i guess some things just doesnt improve with time.

apa lah rain nie, sasakku, kan ke bukit pun inda. trist (?) ku krg.


see i told you, perfect brunei.

Monday, February 11, 2008 9:46 PM

♥...




you?

Saturday, February 09, 2008 9:54 AM

♥weather doesnt look so good for my benefit, but still i made my way to Tasek Lama for the very first time huhu. i honestly prefer MY bukit though. the only thing i like about tasek was the clean enviroment and the rock climbing. looks fairly intriguing.

ive got too much pent up energy and i just cant seem to find anything to take it out on. the only thing that makes me a little wee bit sane is my bukit and running.

sometimes your friends are the friggin devils in your life.


Izism says:
god u need to get laid
R says:
HAHAHAHA




save your heart and end your life OR ignore the beat to save your life?

Thursday, February 07, 2008 11:49 AM

♥like i realised 2 nights ago, 2008 has even start to begun, its already beginning to look like a shitty year for me.

people screw you over, people change. seriously fuckd. dont think i could take another disappointment or ill implode. i really need that incentive, any takers?


thanks for venting with me. im glad you stayed the same. you know i love you, and when youre back we really need to get a better picture than this haha. we need more izzats in this world.

ye olde yonder days.






bukit anyone?
:D

Monday, February 04, 2008 8:09 PM

♥i need a little incentive that's going to assure me im going to be alright.

.. im slightly losing my mind.


help?

Sunday, February 03, 2008 11:00 AM

♥theres so many things that are better left unsaid.


its alright, you know i just rather you not insult my intelligence and pretend everythings ok, but youre the only one who can pretend. when you see me smiling at you, you dont know whats rolling in the back of my mind, when im laughing, its you im laughing at.


this is why i rather be alone most of the time, another reason why im so anti-social. its either they screw you over or just fucking leave. wtf. no sincerity kah anymore? CHICKEN!


woooooooooot.
you dont know how hard it is to 'sabar' especially for someone like me.