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Thursday, March 20, 2008 1:11 PM


give me heart, just give me hope
give me love, just give me rope
give me all i never knew
give me something to hold on to

ive been feeling a rush of emotions lately and frequently and its scaring me. i hate feeling vulnerable. sigh



Wednesday, March 05, 2008 8:17 PM




:)





i just downladed lifehouse '07 album and im enjoying it a little too much. overplayed and definitely something that will be in my playlist until i get sick of them. lifehouse the only recent band ive downloaded, the rest are micheal jackson, bryan adams. damn those influences :p. and theres also the moon walk to go along hehe. like i said, damn those influences.



everyone's seem to be celebrating love, whats up with that? just seem to be a lethal dose injection of love. e v e r y f r i g g i n w h e r e . friendster, facebook, msn and what not. omg. i mean i did had my share of pda back when i actually had a heart, but you know when it's a little too much :P



and the meeting up of people seems to be popping up everywhere. i just met an old school mate from wayyy back in my pri years today. this week has been seemingly interesting, with old people popping up everywhere. just hope itll stay that way :)



asshole update; after the 'subtle' messages i got, now he's trying to act as if everythings ok. wtf kind of psycho is that? banar tah ihhhhhhh.











we're crashing into the unknown
we're lost in this, but it feels like home


Tuesday, March 04, 2008 8:56 PM



when youre given lemons, you make lemonade.
when youre given hope, you make the best of it.
but what if youre given a choice, what the hell are we suppose to decide on?

mmmm, ive been sleeping exceptionally well. which is great but its been making me a tad bit lazier than i had hoped for. so much for getting all energized up. i havent even been feeling well lately as well, and the fact that i stop trying to find productive things to occupy myself makes me feel even worse and old, need to change that habit.
and fast.

i was true as the sky is blue
but i couldnt soon say the same for you

i admit im one of those person who gets a little hard to read at times, and even so on msn but i do have the occasional quotes in my head that i just put on msn but really, can you be any more subtle? i guess some guys really just think with their dicks. guys like that just annoy me.

i made it exceptionally clear what i wanted or what i didnt need right now. you made yourself into such a victim. dont be putting the blame on me asshole.

men, dont know whats stuck up their ass.


Sunday, March 02, 2008 8:44 PM


the only one in my heart, my no.1

happy 6th birthday. you know i love you ;)


i could be content with him. no need the mess or the stress of having a man in my life. hes the one whos running home to me after a long day, the one whos constantly giving and showing me affection out of the blue, the one whos pretty much concern about me and its just enough.

dont grow up too fast my love; you'll always be my no.1

ive been keeping myself preoccupied with almost anything i can find which is suprisingly easy. i havent been hogging the computer so much, which is a big big feat for me. i dont feel so dependant on it anymore mmm. it actually feels refreshing. havent even been downloading anything as well except for those occasional shows, other than that its always something productive.

.. yet i still feel pretty much empty. after im done with whatever it is that i find, i sit in one corner and all those thoughts i try to evade comes rushing back. is it impossible to just let it slide? i hate it when i get a bit too involve when i know i shouldnt, screw thinking man.

random and useless paragraph, doubt anybody understands that. other than that im pretty much alright. today's also another day to remember. met 2 old friends and catch up with countless old old friends today. mmm, finally my god's day isnt wasted like those past weeks.

time to make one last appeal, for the life i lead













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RRRawr


wondeRone



quod me nutrit; me destruit.