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Friday, February 23, 2007 2:41 AM


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my cram workspace but comfy workspace in sepia

and color
testing with my sony ericsson. good stuff i tell you hehe.

ahhh i just finished watching oth latest episode. such an anticlimax moment!! i just cant stop thinking about it. even worse i just cant seem to find anyone to talk about it too. shaf? boo? hehe. imjustthat addicted.

im going to an open house tomorrow for chinese new year. its going to be my second EVER. the first time was at fredericks house.

in other news, im pretty proud of myself that i can be able to do some maths problems normally ill ignore but i can DO IT NOW so thats one thing good about today. 1 hour of maths surely paid off.

now;; its 216am and i just cant seem to go to sleep. i hope it isnt like before where id sleep at 4am and wake up around 8am. feeling like a zombie.
oh and much better news, my connection today is simply superb. my downloads are so much faster than before (hence oth frenzy), john mayer's albums and much moreee. i guess thats pretty much it for today. so kiss me im out!

ill make the most of all the sadness
youll be a bitch because you can
you try to hit me just to hurt me
so you leave me feeling dirty
because you cant understand
p.s: dn and carmen electra divorce was finalized today. oh davey im availablee HEHEHEHE

ciao.


Monday, February 19, 2007 10:19 PM


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i hate my internet connection, its not consistent and its really REALLY taking a toll on me. i cant surf properly, i have to keep on refreshin, i dont know if my friends are replying slowly or its just my connection or whatsoever grr.

i dont have anything to bitch/complain/say frankly speaking hehe. this is just one of those random post. with a random picture.


ciao bella!


Sunday, February 18, 2007 3:58 PM


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ahh, the third day being back. somehow i feel i a foreign here. i admit its good to be back, i guess im just familysick not homesick.

I today am proud to say i have a learn a new one and you will hear me using it often. Mengugutkan BABY :p. Hopefully i can remember and try to implant it on my future karangan paper for June again. Ill be retaking the 2 dreaded M (Maths & Malay) and also Combined Science. Pls wish me better luck for the 3 again. I have made up my mind on what to do, where do i go from here and most importantly WHAT ill be studying. Its actually comforting to know you dont have dread the worse for now actually for quite sometime :)

I am feeling like such a loner since ive been back, i guess cos i was surrounded by people all day long, even up to my sleeping time. Tomorrow i will definitely start studying like a freaking geek. Bio, Phys, Chem, Malay, Maths. Sounds like a full scheduele for now until May/June. Like i said, please pray for me.

I was such in a angst rage just now because of a horrible accusation bestowed upon me by dearly boy. To even think it is bad, but to mention it is so much more worse. I guess sometimes your mind speaks out more before processing it. Guys dont know a thing about making a girl feel right at home. To men/guys/boys whatever you like to be called, please give us space and most importantly the comfort to know that even though we push you as far as we could, let us know your there for us no matter what. (BTW this is not the accusation its so much more worse, it just felt right and appropriate to state that now HEH)

Ciao for now me bellas!


Friday, February 16, 2007 6:58 PM


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one day back and i feel like im home sick. boohoooooo

flight back home was such a friggin terrible, i was seated in the middle beside two strangers because i checked in late. while lunch was being served, the lady on my right spilled mango juice on my new pair of jeans. !@#$%^&*(). endless words of profanity was filling up my mind but i refrain myself because i was too busy being upset. instead i put on a smile and said it was alright. (amazing aint it hehe)

at night after i rested and stuff, i was uploading the pictures and chatting to my sister. i didnt realise until now my camera was corrupted with her pictures! almost in every photo. it was even being corrupted when i was checking in to get a seat haha.


i didnt realise i was going to miss my family and singapore so much. most of all i miss the food there. you lucky bastards there. but its all good cos i will go back there soon. one way or another teehee.

and now for the pictures

the brother and i

some minah i shot who was pissed at me. hehe.

my confidant and angmoh

the wonderwoman in my life.

another minah who was sticking her tongue out at me.
the bitch, the scary, the pengecut.
more to come soon.

mummy i miss you cos i love you.
daddy i miss your 'im brushing my teeth so ill sit in a corner and keep quiet' (HEHEHE)
nana i miss your laughter and you.
atul i miss your 'you idiot' and you painting my toenails.
bani i miss your harsh comments and your complaints about work.

p.s: sofian, mana perkataan sehari-hari? is it even right? haha engkau mesti mulakan. i KNOW you read my blog.


Wednesday, February 07, 2007 12:40 AM


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and i just cant think, of anything else id rather do
than to hear you sing, sing my name the way you do
when we do our thing, when we do the things we do

damn those songs that get stuck in your head and immediately disappears when you finally play them.

sometimes i wonder how does a normal family actually go on, get by and just live. it sucks to see a big happy family going for dinner together. mum fussing if the kids are seated properly, dad wanting to hear how was sch, mum feeding the ickle baby, kids all happy and all. i got nothing agaisnt them its just that sometimes i wish i had that. friggin envy.

not that my familys all that bad, we do have moments i just wish we had more of that. definitely emphasize on the more. but broken families are the one that mould you early in life, give you more clarity, shoving responsibilities up to your thoart. and damn does that make you realise life isnt all peaches at cream at the tender age of 5. and in a way im glad.

im so fed up with my thoughts of you
and your memory
and how every song reminds me
of what used to be


on more of a sour note, 8 more days to reality. im going to miss everything here so much fucking more than ever before. i wish this would never end. ghak. will update soon with more incriminating pictures hehehe.


ciao bellla xx.



Monday, February 05, 2007 10:46 AM


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does anybody know this missing japanese tourist? if this isnt a clear enough picture of you. heres a more vague and clearer photo for you.




ghehe. you know you love me! any sightings pls let me know asap. =) can you believe it a dnless photoless post. the things i do for you love :p. 10 more days. sad to know itll come to an end in about a week or so sighs. but for now let me enjoy myself and indulge in more of my mums amazing cooking.
ciao bellllaaa
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the only wondeRone
i may be reckless, but im not a rebel without a cause

still soul-searching but getting there

supposedly
quod me nutrit; me destruit.