right now i have precisely nothing to do except wait for my tudors to be done downloading. well other than blog.

today is the first time in about a month or so that i ate sooo much and felt full for an entire afternoon. since the usual was busy, brought along the cousin. big mistake! ended up walking instead of jogging but i guess its better than nothing. he really made me think though. how we all try to find the safest haven, we dont take a risk, we just settle. even though we want to venture out, theres just always that certain someone holding us back. even just realising how they bring out the best worst in everything, we just dont have the heart, no matter what we've been attached, handcuffed to them.

funny how someone younger and less experienced can give you a slightly better perspetive in life that you thought you knew so well. i guess that show youre slowly growing older. maturing. over the hill. time to shoot myself in the pasture and be done with life hahahahaha

chicken! if all my walks/jogs and talks were with him constantly i think ill be a tad bit more crazy than i already am.

im slowly feeling better, as of today its slowly healing baby steps though.