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Sunday, January 20, 2008 4:12 PM
♥i might change your life i might save my world could you save me? it was just a while ago when we were learning to cycle and came home with bruises after you suggested we land on the soft patch of what you thought was just a bush, without knowing there was a huge drain beneath the comfy looking greens. how time flies my love! i remember afternoons after school with you was what i looked forward to. basketball after lunch. trading archie comics. karaoke. tekken. cycling. dinner. midnight gossips. i don't remember us watching tv or doing our own thing back then. it was always "us". that was what she wrote to me exactly a year ago. god i miss her. i wish you were here. even though we hardly speak to each other when we're apart, living our own life. i know youre still there for me, just waiting to catch me when i fall. one of the many reasons why i love you. The house is extremely quiet without fana's heavy footsteps and occassional pats (or rather, whacks) on the back at the wrong times (eg. when you're trying to drink). I do miss her, and her neverending questions, in which answers to them won't help in any way. asking, for the sake of asking. the late night card games cease to exist. god knows we even had a deck of cards in the house till she came. and her shameless burps, in which, especially in public, would had you wishing you could dig a hole and bury her, or yourself in it. that little incentive came a month later hehe.  my pillar one My baby sister finally turned 18. I know I havnt exactly been a very good host now that she is back. But I don't know what to talk to her. I only remember the little girl who used to terrorise her elder brother. I don't know my sister. Of course I feel somewhat sad. But I don't know what to say to her. I'm sure she doesn't know me either. now that was my sister, a year ago. it kinda hurts to read the part about us not knowing each other, because i think i know her pretty well enough. we were never close during our younger adolescent years but we just got closer about end of last year. im greatful to have someone who supports me in almost all that i do and just listen instead of jabbering away.  my pillar two. i guess im missing my two pillars of strength. god knows how much i need you both right now. i just feel like i lost my soul today. i lost my way, and i really wish you both were here with me. my confidants. im slowly losing my mind. thank god for the occasional msn, texts and even calls once in a while just to check up on how im doing. we've been through alot, with and without each other. youve both seen me at my worst and my best. i guess this is one of the worse at the moment. i guess what im trying to say is i really miss you both. please know that im always thinking of you. xx
its just a phase, ill get through this eventually. ill get through it faster with you both around. |
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