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Tuesday, May 27, 2008 9:05 PM
♥look into my eyes cant you see theyre open wide would i lie to you baby would i lie to you baby HEHE *dancing away
Monday, May 26, 2008 8:22 PM
♥sudden interest in where i am? haha. i just needed someplace to put down my overflooded thoughts. so it might not make sense at all, but bare with me please. i havent been the best person in the last 8 months. i went to be somebody id never thought ill be in a thousand years but still i stayed in my true form. i didnt stray and pretended to be somebody i wasnt. i think things more thoroughly and more of what i wanted than what others wanted,not to say im completely selfish but if its what i would want badly or think i deserve, selfish it is. i really dont have the need to depend on anyone anymore like i used to. i could spend time endless time alone like i do now and dont have urge to call or text someone just so ill have company. i could walk around without a care in the world with the clothes on my back and whatevers thoughts im plotting haha. ive changed alot and THAT just occured to me. i guess it took me 2 years to realise ive changed so much after walking that familiar hallway where i created chaos for a few good years. i guess you never really know huh.
Sunday, May 18, 2008 10:45 PM
♥who knew someone was watching over me all this time or even thinking about me. suprise suprise. im not unforgettable after all. :) the little things the some people could say to you just brigthens your day. especially the ones that you never expected. suprising how humanity can still suprise you even though its the one thats been letting you down.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 7:54 PM
♥ how do you ever let go? do we have to on with our lives in a mask masquearading like nothing happened? why do we always have to give up the things that we're so comfortable with, the thing that makes us be who we're suppose to be or brings out the worst in us and yet we enjoy it either way. what are we suppose to do? what am i suppose to do? we tend to refrain from saying things that will always end up with a backlash, or a retribution. i want to go on, like i was before. free of every expectation, every constraint. but really, i just wish.. ive just been preoccupied with thoughts in my mind lately. pardon the above, just needed to get some things off my mind, literally. ive been buried with so much work lately that i just feel so dead. im getting the hang of things but its just a little overwhelming.i guess i really miss my old enviroment, where everything was limitless hehe. ive got so much stuff i put on hold because of work.i just dont feel like i have enough time for anything which really depresses me. sometimes i cant believe i took things for granted when i had nothing to do except bum around and jog. i just have to manage my time a little better. speaking of jogging, my ankle finally completely healed. i havent done anything to strain myself in 3 weeks and its really driving me up the wall, hence why my thoughts are sliding in another direction. must take out my ankle for a test drive huhu. i cant wait until may's over. it just doesnt seem like the month for me this year. the only thing thats keeping me sane. :)
Sunday, May 11, 2008 9:42 AM
♥i gotta say i enjoyed my weekend. i didnt go out the whole weekend, i didnt see anybody, i didnt even hog my laptop. all i did was stayed in and watch all 5 batman movies :):). now all i gotta do is try and occupy the rest of my godsday ;).
Friday, May 09, 2008 8:52 PM
♥i never knew perfection til i heard you speak and now it kills me, just to hear you say the simple things weekend is finally here. i cant friggin wait to just bum around. wooooooooooooooooooooooooots. but then again theres just something thats been on my mind, and i just cant seem to let go for some reason.
Monday, May 05, 2008 9:44 PM
♥links updated! suddenly everyones resurfacing again :p. will update soon; ive been too exhausted for anything really.
Thursday, May 01, 2008 8:35 PM
♥sometimes relenting to the world or rather blogging on how you feel can be a real curse. huhu im back to feeling pretty much empty. sometimes it feels like the weight of the world just drops on me and i just cant seem to shake the feeling that im much better off completely alone, but ive been trying not to be too anti-social. just incase my thoughts my slide in another way off direction. btw its not as bad as it seems, not to the point where i want to "die", just completely alone is all. lucky i got some insane people that ive been hanging out with, which distracts me for awhile but then when i get back home, well thats another different story altogether. and it get worse at night, ill be lucky to get a good few hours of sleep. i can only sleep for 2 or 3 measley hours and the rest of the time im awake, and staring out wondering how the hell it got this bad. i cant even tire myself out anymore what with this damn sprained ankle, thank god its getting better or ill simply go insane, well more than usual really. today was my first and it was just pretty, slow day. new enviroment, new people and everything else new. its like starting anew, just when i was just so comfortable. i just hope it gets better fast sighs. i miss laughing in my own sense. the only thing im actually happy is that episodes are all out! woots! thats the only thing thats keeping me in line, and throw in my saturday nights at that :) one look in my eyes and youll realizeyou got my heart in your hands |
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