Thursday, May 01, 2008 8:35 PM

♥sometimes relenting to the world or rather blogging on how you feel can be a real curse. huhu im back to feeling pretty much empty.


sometimes it feels like the weight of the world just drops on me and i just cant seem to shake the feeling that im much better off completely alone, but ive been trying not to be too anti-social. just incase my thoughts my slide in another way off direction. btw its not as bad as it seems, not to the point where i want to "die", just completely alone is all.


lucky i got some insane people that ive been hanging out with, which distracts me for awhile but then when i get back home, well thats another different story altogether. and it get worse at night, ill be lucky to get a good few hours of sleep. i can only sleep for 2 or 3 measley hours and the rest of the time im awake, and staring out wondering how the hell it got this bad. i cant even tire myself out anymore what with this damn sprained ankle, thank god its getting better or ill simply go insane, well more than usual really.


today was my first and it was just pretty, slow day. new enviroment, new people and everything else new. its like starting anew, just when i was just so comfortable. i just hope it gets better fast sighs. i miss laughing in my own sense.


the only thing im actually happy is that episodes are all out! woots! thats the only thing thats keeping me in line, and throw in my saturday nights at that :)




one look in my eyes and youll realizeyou got my heart in your hands