Sunday, November 02, 2008 7:53 PM

♥youd think id be dead on my feet after the afternoon i had but im still up and about and waiting for a text.

but i literally killed myself today. omfg, who woulda thought pushing myself would lead to me having a slightly near asthma attack AND wanting to just SIT. jungletracking really shows im out of shape. how could i not be? almost 3 friggin months of not doing anything especially a big contribution from raya.

i never realised i was physically out of shape until TODAY. UPSET SIA. feeling so out of it now when i worked so hard to get back THAT stamina. worse part was i didnt get my runners high at all. boooo! i took 2 rounds of jogging and just felt dead after that. i miss that high, its the only good thing ive left right now. its so out of my grasp right now, i have to work to get it back again. aiyo. huffing and puffing and having to slow down the damn heart rate what with looking and NEVER ENDING steps just feels wrong man. and to think i use to enjoy that.

i do feel way better after that horrid workout but just doesnt seem right like it did before. i wonder..

.. but thank god for my random late night fridays, its easier to vent out with someone rather than none at all. november just started and im already dreading it. doesnt seem right to end '08 without a bang. watch me :D