Wednesday, February 24, 2010 7:59 PM

♥can i please for once get what i want?

Monday, February 15, 2010 9:01 PM

♥another bomb spent on something that seems only to be on paper, no regrets though buts its funny when youre spending what you work so hard for and its just a piece of paper proving that you're worth it. sometimes life experience and streetwise isnt enough. i guess human credibility just isnt good enough.


yesterday was when it hit me, after an hour of torture hitting sheets, keys, notes, quaver, gdgdbcbcdb.. that i feel inadequate. that i might not just be strong enough. that i might just fail. that im not a good person. that i might crash and burn and have no tomorrow anymore. that the wolrd is not my oyster. that i might live until im 50. that im human and i make mistakes but others put that pressure on you, making you feel even more worse than you should.

suddenly the weight of the world feels heavier than ever, especially when theres nothing else to look forward to anymore..



i hang my coat up in the first bar
there is no peace that I've found so far
the laughter penetrates my silence
as drunken men find flaws in science

Monday, February 08, 2010 8:08 PM

♥wow, its been quite some time since i posted anything here.
then again not a whole lot to remember, well not here anyway :p

so its finally 2010 and i turned 21 16 again.





.. time's going by too fast, i still need time to smell the roses